I am feeling really frustrated lately. Pure frustration. I can’t put my finger on exactly why, but I can tell you where I am right now. I have been working on a new site all year and it’s hard to put into words, but my goal is that it’s not a site to promote ME. I hope and pray you see something entirely the opposite there. And it’s really frustrating because it’s hard to create a site that is different from anything I’ve ever done. Because, well… I’m different. This process of creating this site has been a true PROCESS and has forced me to look at my life and all I’ve done and all God has done to change me and it makes me feel this enormous sense of responsibility to use every single day to the FULL. Because, life is short and these days are a gift and He is real and active and I have living proof of that- my heart. I’m frustrated because these facts make me feel very vulnerable and I don’t like that. I’m frustrated because I want a platform that really feels like the me I know now and I want it yesterday. Sort of like feeling like you’re wearing dirty clothes and you want to put on new ones ASAP. That’s how I feel. I’m frustrated because what I want more than anything in the world is to glorify God and I get really really really frustrated with myself when I fall short of that…. but then I realize that’s exactly the point. I will always fall short of that. God’s amazing grace covers it all. In simple terms – God doesn’t expect me to BE Him, He expects me to CHOOSE Him.
I spent the good part of the last 48 hours writing out my story for a video piece I’m creating with Adam and Austin. I feel compelled to go ahead and share a piece of it with you here…
Hi, my name is Lara Casey. I publish Southern Weddings magazine, I consult creative business owners to help make their dreams happen, I’m a mama, a wife, a friend and a believer in the impossible.
When I first started in business, I went after what the world says is “success” – getting my name out, popularity, more followers, bigger, bigger bigger. I got all of those things and soon realized my heart was empty. My marriage suffered, my relationships suffered, and I was working till 3am every night. I was miserable. Sounds familiar to anyone? I had “success” on paper … and those things ultimately weren’t fulfilling.
I had to start making hard decisions that would get me on a path to lasting joy. I knew I had to start facing my fears. God’s amazing grace saved me from a life that was going nowhere fast. I started actively making what MATTERS happen. It wasn’t easy and it didn’t happen overnight, but God blessed my life far more than I every imagined possible. Life is completely different. I now believe in the “impossible” and I am on a mission to help others believe that too. If you want change, choose it. Act, make the call, love, dive in, forgive, give it all. Make a decision. Life is too short. To be truly successful, you do not have to sacrifice what matters. Love never fails. DOING the things that fire us up and living a full life focusing true love IS what makes our work soar.
This is why I’m so passionate about this work and giving as much as possible. I want to help people live lives that matter and I want to give my whole heart to others, showing them through my actions — failures and triumphs — that you CAN live a fulfilled life – a meaningful joyful creative life when you say yes to what matters. In my marriage, as a mother, as a business owner, as a friend, I want to live a life that glorifies God, not me. I’m far from perfect and I have so much growing to do, but I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Love never fails.
And now, after writing this to you, it dawned on me. Frustration happens when we are changing. Thank God He is never done with me.
Photos by Dear Wesleyann from our family vacation to Watercolor.